What happened to you? What happened me? What happened to us? Nothing? Everything? Maybe somewhere in between. Nothing is a strong word, it has many meanings to me. It means uninspired. It means unaccomplished. It means unsure. It means me, my insides and out. I do nothing, so I am nothing. I am not inspired. My hope and my excitement is gone. Did it ever exist? Did I always feel like this? I want to feel passion. I want to feel excitement. I want feel like anything is possible. Was I always this way? As long as I can remember. Pain and emptiness always last, happiness is never felt. Nothing is what I strive not to be. It haunts me and I give up. Nothing can take over, it’s all I have now.

My One True Self